My trainer and how I became what I am now - Thank You!

If you read my profile, you will get a sense I have gone through many reiterations, trial and tribulations of myself , trying to change who I am, what I am. It has been a struggle for most of my life. My trainer asked how it all started and why now that the change is sinking in? I don't know there is not one answer to these questions. All I know is I am very fortunate to have met my trainer who works very hard to have me reach my goal and believes in me. She is not only my trainer but she has become my friend as well.

I had just finished my 5th or 6th half marathon and felt OK but something was missing. I did not feel good about myself. So I thought all I need is to focus on the running and joined a gym near work so I would have no excuse.  The gym's main purpose is to get you to sign up and also try to get you into personal training which at that time I was not interested since I was not into weight training and it was costly but I went for the assessment. Boy, was I surprised to find that I gained a whole bunch of weight and my body fat was a startling 48%. That is so hard to fathom since I ran 50 miles per week.
The stressed fracture was the deciding factor for me to do personal training. I am not good about self motivation and plus I would not know what to do.

While talking to this other trainer, I did an eye glance to this trainer and I said "Dang, I would like her to be my trainer"  The next day that trainer said I cannot train me but to introduce a different trainer and when I met her I said "Whoa" because she was the one I encounter the night before. How coincidental is that, so cosmic!

My first time with Jackie - it was only 20 mins. Oh man, I thought I was in shape. She beat me up. This is exactly what I needed for someone to push me. So I signed up and here I am. The sessions were real tough, at first it was totally high intensity to get my body moving and for me to go on that horrible stair master. I thought to myself, I am going to quit but I didn't. As the training continued, we talked about my diet, my other activities. I realize my macros were out of proportion, too many carbs, I adjusted that and was getting better results. Since I was also doing yoga, running and other activities. I was OK. She told me I am not allow to get on the scale because they lied and plus your weight would fluctuate and muscle weighs more. The last thing we talk and I have changed is EATING CLEAN, no processed foods, no bad stuff. I feel I am doing pretty good in this area since the food I make is trainer approved.

Besides my physical being changing, my emotional being is changing as well. 2013 has been a rough year for me emotionally. If it was not for my trainer, my friend, who is always there to listen, I would not know what to do. The things I used to do, I would do haphazardly but now I have a whole different mindset of trying harder, doing my best, put forth effort. So emotionally, I now feel a sense of self confidence and self esteem. I feel a lot better about myself. Thanks to Jackie! Are you listening Jackie?

Soon, it will be a year training with her. Those who know me I easily get totally bored but I think Jackie recognizes my ADHD and knows how to work it. Like I said I am so fortunate. I will continue in 2014.